My Practice Long Comp Story
My First Day at Osgood
Everyone had friends. Everyone but me. I felt so alone, I wanted to cry. Watching those kids with the best friends, holding hands and doing handshakes. I wanted to flip my whole life back around and be able to go back to my old school. I wanted to go back more than anything. This new school was nothing like my old one. It was only two floors, and the playground was way smaller than the one at my old school. And it had an elevator. Why would anybody need an elevator? And you didn’t have a charge card to buy lunch with; just regular old money. People were staring at me. They didn’t know who the heck I was or why the heck I was there. But they acted like I was a moldy piece of cheese that no one dared to go near. That’s how I felt too. They just didn’t get that I was the new girl. Running those words around in my head filled my eyes with tears. I was never the new girl at my old school. Never the one everyone stares at in the middle of math, the perfectly normal girl with fifty-bajillion friends that she had to give up for this. That’s what I was. That, and a girl with a heart as heavy as an anvil. I sat with a bunch of boys who were seemingly obsessed with pigs. They all new each other, and didn’t bother with me, which I was surprisingly okay with. I don’t think I wanted my new best friends to be pig-obsessed boys. But when I asked them their names to make myself seem nice, they all looked at me like I had twelve million heads and turned away. One of said to me in the most hurtful voice anyone could ever hear: “You don’t belong here. Just go crawl back under your dirt pile back where you used to be and leave us all alone,” he said. A tear rolled down my cheek. Everyone laughed. Our teacher snapped her head around and made me go out in the hall while she yelled at the rest of the class. “Come on back in,” she said a few minutes later. “Can I just stay out here for the rest of the year?” I asked, my face stilled caked with dry tears. “I know what it’s like. It’s tough, leaving everything behind for a place and people that are brand new for you. But you’ll manage. You’re a good kid,” she said. I wanted to believe that I could manage, but I just couldn’t. I wanted my best friend Chloe back and the gym teacher who let us pick the games, the good lunch food, going to school with my friend Chi-Chi everyday. I wanted it all back, but I knew I would never, ever see any of it again. I was stuck, and I wanted to go back.
After lunch, I had one friend. Well, sort of. She was the only one who was nice to me. Maybe she only felt bad for me, but we’re still close friends to this day. It still pains me to talk about Chloe in front of people, but talking about Chloe in front of Emily, the friend, felt comfortable, and whenever I feel lonely, I can talk to her about anything-but mostly when I feel lonely I wish for Chloe to be at my side, so I talk to Emily about Chloe. We sat at the lunch table sitting further away from the other people. Everybody but Emily was pretending I was invisible. “Why does everyone hate me?” I asked. “They don’t hate you, they just…don’t know you is all,” she replied. I want to go home, I thought. I just want this to be over. The girls were twirling their fingers through each others hair. I wasn’t hungry anymore. Watching those girls made me think of Chloe, the way she was always playing with her hair. I tossed my sandiwch in the trash can from my seat and watched it go in. “Nice throw!” one of the boys in my class called. “Thanks!” I replied. Two people talking to me was a good start.
We had gym after recess. I think someone was pretending to be a baseball player and spit on the ground or they threw up a little. Then, one of the boys dared another boy to lick it and he did. The girls gagged at that, but I just thought the were being plain old stupid. I noticed a lot of boys were like that. I hated people who did stupid, pointless things. I had never jumped rope before, and I was the only one who couldn’t do it. I could feel 42 eyeballs staring at me as the rope flailed around my head as I desperately attempted to jump over it. Now I thought I was the one being stupid. I heard snickers coming from behind me. I snapped my head around and gave some boys the evil eye. I wanted to scream at them for laughing at me, for ruining my day, for being the reason I hate it here, for having no friends. I wanted to blow up at them and tell them how stupid they were being and how they were only embarrassing themselves. But I couldn’t do it. They stopped, but when I turned back around, half satisfied, they started laughing again. “It’s okay, you’ve never done it before,” Emily said. She was the only one not laughing, but the ones who were just only made me feel worse.
I waited for the bell to ring hiding my face in an I SPY book. I pretended I was reading it, but I was really avoiding everyone’s eyes. One friend, I thought. That made me feel better. Every once and a while I’d look at the clock. After what seemed like an hour, they called dismissal. I waved goodbye to Emily and walked down the stairs-alone-thinking to myself, I’ve got one friend. That’s good enough for me.









